“Every woman who heals herself, helps heal all the women who came before her, and all those that come after her.”
Christiane Northrup
As a child, I expressed myself most authentically through art—drawing, painting, and working with clay, creating freely with my hands. But as I grew up in the Netherlands, I conformed to society’s demands of perfectionism, productivity, and achievement, dimming my light and losing my deep connection with self. My health became the strongest reflection of this disconnection.
My first moon cycle arrived in my 10th year. Instead of connecting to my womb I numbed myself in a desperate attempt to ‘control’ and hide my bleed from others through birth control. The daily intake of heavy chemicals at an insane young age altered the natural state of my hormones. I experienced deep felt anger and darkness (hi scorpio moon) and didn’t have the practices yet to healthily move through this. Over time these unprocessed emotions stacked up and formed a trauma. My body naturally entered a state of dis-ease.
In 2015, I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, a chronic autoimmune dis-ease. While studying fashion in Amsterdam, I lived a double life— immersed in demanding projects while enduring pain, hospital visits, and the side effects of heavy medication. After years of ineffective treatment, facing surgery and cancer risks — I heard enough.
I wasn’t going to live my life like this..
The western pharmaceutical industry failed me intensely and I found myself in desperate search for a ‘cure’ for my incurable dis-ease. I was forced to look elsewhere as the world of natural healing and spirituality unfolded before me. I was so ready, so open. It felt like homecoming.
‘‘A healthy man wants a thousand things, a sick man only wants one.’’ — Confucius
My healing journey required me to look deep within. Not knowing the root cause at this point yet, I visited all my triggers and stuck emotions and trauma that might be the root cause that caused the dis-ease. It brought me back to my womb space and sacral chakra.
Instead of fighting my body, I began treating it with love and listen to what she had to say. Through somatic practices, yoga, meditation, affirmations, and reprogramming my cells, I directed my body toward healing. My perspective shifted from "Why is this happening to me?" to "What is this teaching me?" After years of extensive research, experimenting with diet, juicing, and holistic treatments, I slowly began to heal. I realised that ‘Your body is never working against you, only for you’.
After 2 years of blood, tears, desperation, try-outs, fails, wins and insufferable pain — I slowly, very, very slowly started to see improvement. Through this deep inner inquiry and dedication I slowly waned of medication and eventually — healed. Leaving my doctor in complete disbelief, telling me this was ‘impossible’.
Bringing my body from dis-ease back to ease.
This decade long holistic journey of homecoming is the womb of all creation and the inspiration behind my deep heart-felt offerings and space holding. Let’s journey together into a space where authenticity blooms, and self-empowerment feels like home. It’s time to shift the way we connect with our bodies, unlocking the fierce yet soft, abundant energy we all hold. We’ll rewrite the narratives we've lived by, embodying that which we’re always meant to be.